*WARNING* --- due to months of inactivity, expect following post to be REEEAAAALLLLYYYY long, thank you =)
woah.. it's been 3 months since I started this blog... and this is my 3rd post.. very sad.. hmm i guess i've been too busy with the happenings of the end of last sem... So picking up from my
last post (which was aaaagggeeeessss ago) I had a zillion papers and requirements due.. haha Hell MONTH... there was even a week when I didn't sleep on the Sunday, tuesday and
thursday... meaning I slept every other night.. i tell you, it was intense.. So for the people out there who whine about not being able to sleep enough... You should live through my hell.
OK positive things that have happened to me since end of freshman year:
1) I passed all my subjects! ugh.. what's annoying tho is that I fell 0.05 points to get a QPI of 3 (over 4).. oh well at least i passed right?
2) I went back to Switzerland! (talk more about that later on)
3) I got to go for a month without a single drip of coffee...
4) I got to go for a straight week by sleeping on or before 11pm
5) Have decent and fun profs and subjects for summer classes
So yeah.. I went to Swiss.. woohoo yada yada... I made the greatest surprise in YFC Geneva history hahaha... ( seriously I practically made friend faint!!! )
It went really well.. Saw practically all of my old friends... I really felt like nothing had changed in all the years I had gone. I mean I had heard a zillion rumors and gossips about how
certain people stopped hanging out with certain people.. how others had become bitches and bastards while others had become more "tamed".. I got there, surprised everyone.. they saw
me.. then we hung out like old times...
Switzerland was hella fun.. I got NO SLEEP there.. well practically none.. Every night I would go home at like 1 or 2am... haha my aunts would watch TV while waiting for me, though I know
that they'd fall asleep and just wake up when they'd hear my keys...
So about my friends there: i was sooo happy i got to see them. Sure everyone changed.. but I mean.. who doesn't right? they really changed physically.. but again who would'nt in a lapse
of 3 years? haha I was happy cuz i somehow got some of my friends to rehang out with each other.. Some people who had drifted out of contact suddenly reappeared which was really
sweet and cool... I reconciled old feuds (I guess)... well I do guess that I was disappointed in some of the reactions.. I really don't think that I'm VIP level there, but I still couldn't help but
be disappointed and irritated at the people who didn't really show much surprise by my arrival (i mean those whom i used to be close with...)
I only stayed there for 2 weeks.. and I tell you I didnt waste a single day.. (proof: i stayed out until unholy hours lol)... It was still hella bitin though... didn't visit all the places I wanted to
go to, didnt see my old schoolmates who I wanted to see, didn't eat everything I wanted to eat.. but I'm still really happy with what I did do there..
Ok after coming back here:
oh oh my plane landed in the Philippines at 8:30am... I got through customs at 9:30am.. I got back to my dorm at 10:30am... then I took a shower and left the dorm at 11:25am.. Got to my
2nd class (i missed the first) of first day of summer class at 11:50am... classes started at 12nn... napakasipag kong estudyante!!!
OK so I guess it was wrong to go back to summer school DIRECTLY after my long awaited/frustrated-over trip to Switzerland.. why? because:
delayed depression! haha wth?
So for the first week of summer classes, things were still quite hazy.. probably because I was still toxic from my trip... I was still trying to get the feel of the new profs and subject,
restabilize my internal body clock and all...
The second week after my return was pretty tough and intense.. Summer classes are few but long. This summer, my CS block was sooo dispersed it was insane.. So I barely got to see my
blockmates. For long breaks I would just sleep in my org room, or find random people to eat with, or some other boring stuff... I was missing my Swiss friends SO bad! I kept on thinking,
"damn.. barely a week ago... I was still in Europe..." There was a certain even during that week or the next that sent my world temporarily crashing... :
I was going through the multiply sites of random people from Europe... At that time I was feeling kinda down because I kept on talking with my friends on MSN so I could barely move onto
'reality'.. Back to multiply-hopping.. I looked at the album of a friend and saw that she had recentlly been to two Swiss Hotel Schools... just to visit/inquire... Seeing these simple pictures
caused 3 years of pent up frustration/anger/sadness to just erupt... I cracked... It was like 11pm and my roommates were either sleeping or out... I went into the CR, slid onto the cold tiled
floor and drowned myself in tears for God knows how long... Then after that I called my brother in the States... i went on telling him things that now might've been considered quite
irational "I'm not happy here... I want to do so many things? why can't I study abroad like you did?" yadayada....
Many weeks after these events, I guess I was being a bit rash..People were right when they just thought it was because I was still toxic from my trip and that it would go away... well you
know what? It sort of did... I mean, I still pray to God for a sort of miracle where my mother would suddenly hand a one way ticket to Switzerland, but right now.. I'm good. I've remade
contact with the Pinay Raisa, and the Swiss Raisa is slowly starting to calm down and recede again... Why? i don't know.. summer classes ended up to be hella fun... I've made many new
great friends. I still keep in contact with the rest of my Swiss friends... They've moved on as well aka.. they stopped leaving daily comments on my friendster and not many actually start
net conversations anymore.. This was a big blow of reality for me... There were people in Swiss who told me to "keep in contact, chat everyday, stay updated, not forget them and talk to
them", so that's what I did... During the first few weeks back, there would be high internet activity, but after a while, we just ran out of things to say again.. and conversations went back
to being "hi - hi... musta? - ok lang naman... ikaw? - eto. ayos naman din- hehe..." PERIOD!!! it went back to how it was before I went back to visit Switzerland.. It hurt me quite a bit, which
probably served as my signal to "go onto the next chapter of my life"...
So what now? Quick summary of recent events:
- I went to Nueva Ecija last weekend for an Amazing Sociological Race... life-changing I tell you... It was the funnest thing that happened to me during the summer
- I met new people... these new people actually consist of my roommate's blockmates who are my Socio-Anthro classmates... haha.. really down-to-earth, fun people to hang out with
- I've been getting used to my driving... Need more practice!
- Took badminton classes - tiring.. fun.. helpful.. stress-relieving
- Summer classes ended... today...this last 2 weeks were quite easy-going for my taste.. haha really laid back and fun... Summer 07-08 was a great Experience
- I moved room again! still haven't slept in the new one though...
Ok that's ALL I have to say for now.. At least I'm updated with my life now... Hopefully I'll be able to maintain this.,. if not... oh well... haha
Til next time,
*Bow*
PS.... AISIS Enlistment in FOUR DAYS!!!!! ARGH I NEED DSL!!!
