the return

*WARNING* --- due to months of inactivity, expect following post to be REEEAAAALLLLYYYY long, thank you =)
woah.. it's been 3 months since I started this blog... and this is my 3rd post.. very sad.. hmm i guess i've been too busy with the happenings of the end of last sem... So picking up from my

last post (which was aaaagggeeeessss ago) I had a zillion papers and requirements due.. haha Hell MONTH... there was even a week when I didn't sleep on the Sunday, tuesday and

thursday... meaning I slept every other night.. i tell you, it was intense.. So for the people out there who whine about not being able to sleep enough... You should live through my hell.

OK positive things that have happened to me since end of freshman year:
1) I passed all my subjects! ugh.. what's annoying tho is that I fell 0.05 points to get a QPI of 3 (over 4).. oh well at least i passed right?
2) I went back to Switzerland! (talk more about that later on)
3) I got to go for a month without a single drip of coffee...
4) I got to go for a straight week by sleeping on or before 11pm
5) Have decent and fun profs and subjects for summer classes

So yeah.. I went to Swiss.. woohoo yada yada... I made the greatest surprise in YFC Geneva history hahaha... ( seriously I practically made friend faint!!! )
It went really well.. Saw practically all of my old friends... I really felt like nothing had changed in all the years I had gone. I mean I had heard a zillion rumors and gossips about how

certain people stopped hanging out with certain people.. how others had become bitches and bastards while others had become more "tamed".. I got there, surprised everyone.. they saw

me.. then we hung out like old times...
Switzerland was hella fun.. I got NO SLEEP there.. well practically none.. Every night I would go home at like 1 or 2am... haha my aunts would watch TV while waiting for me, though I know

that they'd fall asleep and just wake up when they'd hear my keys...
So about my friends there: i was sooo happy i got to see them. Sure everyone changed.. but I mean.. who doesn't right? they really changed physically.. but again who would'nt in a lapse

of 3 years? haha I was happy cuz i somehow got some of my friends to rehang out with each other.. Some people who had drifted out of contact suddenly reappeared which was really

sweet and cool... I reconciled old feuds (I guess)... well I do guess that I was disappointed in some of the reactions.. I really don't think that I'm VIP level there, but I still couldn't help but

be disappointed and irritated at the people who didn't really show much surprise by my arrival (i mean those whom i used to be close with...)
I only stayed there for 2 weeks.. and I tell you I didnt waste a single day.. (proof: i stayed out until unholy hours lol)... It was still hella bitin though... didn't visit all the places I wanted to

go to, didnt see my old schoolmates who I wanted to see, didn't eat everything I wanted to eat.. but I'm still really happy with what I did do there..

Ok after coming back here:
oh oh my plane landed in the Philippines at 8:30am... I got through customs at 9:30am.. I got back to my dorm at 10:30am... then I took a shower and left the dorm at 11:25am.. Got to my

2nd class (i missed the first) of first day of summer class at 11:50am... classes started at 12nn... napakasipag kong estudyante!!!

OK so I guess it was wrong to go back to summer school DIRECTLY after my long awaited/frustrated-over trip to Switzerland.. why? because:
delayed depression! haha wth?
So for the first week of summer classes, things were still quite hazy.. probably because I was still toxic from my trip... I was still trying to get the feel of the new profs and subject,

restabilize my internal body clock and all...
The second week after my return was pretty tough and intense.. Summer classes are few but long. This summer, my CS block was sooo dispersed it was insane.. So I barely got to see my

blockmates. For long breaks I would just sleep in my org room, or find random people to eat with, or some other boring stuff... I was missing my Swiss friends SO bad! I kept on thinking,

"damn.. barely a week ago... I was still in Europe..." There was a certain even during that week or the next that sent my world temporarily crashing... :
I was going through the multiply sites of random people from Europe... At that time I was feeling kinda down because I kept on talking with my friends on MSN so I could barely move onto

'reality'.. Back to multiply-hopping.. I looked at the album of a friend and saw that she had recentlly been to two Swiss Hotel Schools... just to visit/inquire... Seeing these simple pictures

caused 3 years of pent up frustration/anger/sadness to just erupt... I cracked... It was like 11pm and my roommates were either sleeping or out... I went into the CR, slid onto the cold tiled

floor and drowned myself in tears for God knows how long... Then after that I called my brother in the States... i went on telling him things that now might've been considered quite

irational "I'm not happy here... I want to do so many things? why can't I study abroad like you did?" yadayada....

Many weeks after these events, I guess I was being a bit rash..People were right when they just thought it was because I was still toxic from my trip and that it would go away... well you

know what? It sort of did... I mean, I still pray to God for a sort of miracle where my mother would suddenly hand a one way ticket to Switzerland, but right now.. I'm good. I've remade

contact with the Pinay Raisa, and the Swiss Raisa is slowly starting to calm down and recede again... Why? i don't know.. summer classes ended up to be hella fun... I've made many new

great friends. I still keep in contact with the rest of my Swiss friends... They've moved on as well aka.. they stopped leaving daily comments on my friendster and not many actually start

net conversations anymore.. This was a big blow of reality for me... There were people in Swiss who told me to "keep in contact, chat everyday, stay updated, not forget them and talk to

them", so that's what I did... During the first few weeks back, there would be high internet activity, but after a while, we just ran out of things to say again.. and conversations went back

to being "hi - hi... musta? - ok lang naman... ikaw? - eto. ayos naman din- hehe..." PERIOD!!! it went back to how it was before I went back to visit Switzerland.. It hurt me quite a bit, which

probably served as my signal to "go onto the next chapter of my life"...

So what now? Quick summary of recent events:
- I went to Nueva Ecija last weekend for an Amazing Sociological Race... life-changing I tell you... It was the funnest thing that happened to me during the summer
- I met new people... these new people actually consist of my roommate's blockmates who are my Socio-Anthro classmates... haha.. really down-to-earth, fun people to hang out with
- I've been getting used to my driving... Need more practice!
- Took badminton classes - tiring.. fun.. helpful.. stress-relieving
- Summer classes ended... today...this last 2 weeks were quite easy-going for my taste.. haha really laid back and fun... Summer 07-08 was a great Experience
- I moved room again! still haven't slept in the new one though...

Ok that's ALL I have to say for now.. At least I'm updated with my life now... Hopefully I'll be able to maintain this.,. if not... oh well... haha
Til next time,
*Bow*

PS.... AISIS Enlistment in FOUR DAYS!!!!! ARGH I NEED DSL!!!

there's a ghost in my mirror!

ok so last night(this morning) i ended by sleeping 6am to 8am... 2 hours of sleep.. what more could i ask for?
i'm in serious need of sleep na.. di ulit ako matutulog ngayon dahil bukas na ipapass yung tanginang paper na toh...
ok so tomorrow.. block bonding ulit sa shakeys.. i want to go pero i would rather go catch up on some sleep...
i have a math longtest tomorrow... wth.. i still havent studied and i dont think i'll have time to study tomorrow... que sera sera...
so tomorrow after lit class.. there's shakey's.. up to 2:30.. then cram for math longtest til 4:30.. at which time the lt will begin.. it'll end at 6.. then from there, run to mateo ricci and get ready fot the fashion show...and get home at 11:30pm.. and sleep and never ever wake up.. sounds good?

ooooh big news of the day: I HAVE BRACES NA!!! i cant eat! i cant remember the last time i was able to chew a meal correctly.. haha

ok i really need to write this paper na... good night all!

yada yada first post

ok so it is currently 4:14 AM... and i just decided to create a blog... why? not sure.. maybe i'm drunk.. or high.. or sleepy.. or emo... or all at once...

i missed blogging.. i need an emotional outlet.. cause at the rate i'm going i feel like i'm gonna burst of tears, hysteria, yells, crap and what not...

i might consider not showing this to anyone... that might be wise...

so I am not sleeping right now because i'm supposed to be working */cramming/* on my research paper whose final draft is due friday... which is tomorrow.. HOLY CRAP! i am so dead.. oh i should add that i havent started yet..

i'm an emotional mess... I am so stressed i can feel the hair on my head slowly releasing its grip from my scalp... i have a phobia of balding...

aside from the 4800 word paper, i also have a math longtest for friday... next monday i have to pass the final version of the reseach paper (sh!t), and my psychology individual project (scrapbook whose title i named this blog after)... oh and friday my cs group is passing our battleship game program thing...

argh! someone please soak me in coffee... side note: i gulped down 2 shots of espresso earlier... which gave me a friggin huge migraine i might add...

oh btw.. i'll work on my layout when i'll have nothing better to do with my life.. and after i regain the endless hours of lost sleep due to English ( that might actually mean never)...

ok i'm gonna go back to my paper now...

random shout outs to people:
cs groupmates: uwaaa honto gomen! i havent been a help at all lately.. i feel so guilty that you guys have been working so hard on the game while i've been off burning paper (i did! for the old burnt effect for my scrapbook pages)... i so want to help you but i have this friggin eng paper and psy scrapbook to do... i know that's a lousy excuse.. argh.. i will make it up to you gusy!

N blockmates: i miss you guys! feel ko di na ako nakakapagbond sainyo.. it's so sad... feel ko tuloy na ooutcast na ako... pero thanks sa outing last week.. it was hillarious =]

eng blockmates: haha wala lang.. good luck sa paper! Bernice! ang hot ni *toot* dba? haha grabe ka friend.. tnx for coming with me to dentist... *tip tip*

orgmates: thanks for the company guys... you've all been great and hillarious! good luck sa fashion show... lol... nikhe! i know your secret!!!! *evil laugh*

roommates/dormmates : i love you guys!!! i think.. haha thanks for being there.. you are my only source of entertainment lately... please dont watch tv too late into the night.. i need silence in order to cram my papers at 2am...

swiss people: i don't know if i'll be able to make it this summer anymore... everything's just so fucked up that i dont know if i still have time to get a visa and ticket and everything... you guys cant imagine how much i want to see you guys and just mess around like old times... hayy.. ewan...

k... i'm done with my random rant of the day...